210, again

Two days later, I'm still at 210. But thats actually okay with me. Yesterday when I weighed myself in the morning I was at 213. I was kinda bummed, but that's still 4 lbs lost in 4 days, which is great. Today, I was back to 210 (I think you can just fluctuate so much), which would still be 7 lbs lost in 5 days. That's really good! If I keep up at that pace, it will only take 11 weeks or so to lose as much as I want to. However, I know it probably won't go that fast. But it's helping me keep going because I see progress already, and I can also see that this isn't going to take me 2 years. By summertime, I'll be back to my old self again. I can't wait! This time, I'm NOT giving up.

Today is my "okay day" where I'll eat what I want. I'm a little nervous, to be honest, but I'm going to try it and then weigh myself again on Tuesday after exercising and eating right on Monday and seeing if it had any negative effect. The book I read a few years ago called "Body for Life" recommended doing this, and said it can actually help because you lose weight so quickly, your body might think it's starving and hold onto that fat more viciously. Eating poorly once a week won't hurt, and it should remind your body it's not starving. I don't know if that's true, but for my sanity also I'm willing to try it!

I have to admit, I'm also worried about losing control. Will I be able to go back Monday morning to eating right again? Hopefully I can just look forward to next week (my work is having a party downtown) "okay day".

So, I've reached the end of week one (well, kinda because I wish I'd started this on Monday rather than Tuesday but at least I started it at all) and I'm 7 lbs lighter (maybe it's just water weight, who knows?) and 1 week closer towards my goal. I plan to be even stricter next week. This week I allowed myself dinners that I probably shouldn't have for the time being (starchy things). I'll stock up on groceries today for good food like chicken breasts, more eggs, fish, fruit, yogurt; and I'll avoid things like spaghetti and meatballs this week.